Bi-Polar this week

I go day by day wondering, what's next for Kenny.  Honestly I love my life, then other days I think about suicide so much.  It's weird.  I know I'm worthy of everything, yet other times I feel like I can't do anything except sit in my bed and do nothing.  I guess this is being bi-polar.  My week went slow cause I got all excited to have my car audio system hooked up in my car.  I got it done and it sounds so good!  I love it.  Then tonight I was rolling up my window and it shattered on me.  Blahhhhhh this sucks.  I just don't think it's fair sometimes.  Really I don't know what I'm going to do.  I just hope it gets fixed soon.  I'm ok right now.  Just bummed about my window.  Life has it's ups and downs and right now I'm living in both.  I met a really cool girl named Chelsea at the coffee shop.  She's a beautiful young lady.  I hope to hangout with her soon.  I had a dream about her kissing me, it was nice.  Why why why do I cry to my boss.  He's trying to get me back into the LDS church and it's really annoying.  Wants me to go on a mission and shit like that.  Fuck that, I've done way to much wrong in life to even be worthy of going on a mission, even if I was interested.  Well I feel like writing another poem so I'm peacin out.  Have a great day or night, if you read this all, thank you.