Who The Fuck Even Cares?

I don't know who reads this, but I must sound like a self-pity fool.  I'm sick of it.  All I do half of the time is be depressed.  I feel like no one in my life understands.  I feel like I'm a negative part of others lives.  Well, I don't know what to do.  I want to cut, but I haven't for a week and a half and I know it wouldn't do me any good.  Fuck...  What should I do.  I don't know weather to just isolate in my room or just keep being a negative influence on peoples lives.  I hope someone will write something.  I'm hurting right now and need some advice on what I should do.  I don't want to work.  My supervisor is so negative and it ruins my day.  I want to quit work.  Do any of you who read this even fucking care?  Or do you get some kind of joy out of reading about so depressed fucking idiot?  Whatever, I just don't know.  Why the fuck was I born with this stupid fucking illness?  All it does is make me think of suicide everyday, which sucks.  Well have a great day, my prayers go out to you.